as written on; 19 October 2008
10:22 PM |
● only we know ●
if it wasnt right and it didnt feel right and it didnt get along right
then it wasnt meant to be.
if what resulted isnt right and nothing like you expected or wanted
then it wasnt meant to be.
you know when you have this crack going through a glass and for a while the slight crack doesnt do much. but at first you test the glass out,, seeing if anything will happen - carefully and consciously.. but when you think its safe you keep using that glass for a while being well aware of the risks of what may soon come..it ends up sooon getting bigger as time goes..or it just one day shatters to a million pieces when you least expect it. yet you are the one who took the risk of using that glass and making it worse..when really you should have gotten rid of it before the extremeties...so who is there to blame but you? its relli metaphoric with relationships that just werent meant to be.
this is one of those things that i wish i didnt regret. but i know its one of the most stupid decisions i made in life and guess what? it wasnt my fault it started or ended.
as written on; 08 October 2008
7:48 PM |
pathoamorous.
i don't know why but whenever i use the word
pathoamorous it makes me feel so sentimental (= the word itself evokes that sense of inconsolobility..and just incase you're wondering wtf that word means or try to look it up in the dictionary ..you'll never find it.
sigh....there are just those days you feel down for no reason. like today. or those days where youre just on top of everything... like yesterday (=. but then again it was cos it was a tuesday yesterday~. i like tuesdays. had a fun train trip to central with nick ..standing the whole way carrying 3 fat ass library books and 2 textbooks.. then jigging my first two maths classes and learning about stagflation instead (it is so not important!)
enjoyed my macro tute cos i learnt...nothing XD guessing all the quiz answers...then heading off to chem prac! woot! did it in threes instead of twos and stuffed the experiment but its all good. i think i spoke the whole three hrs with kay. now tuesdays are the days i dont have tutoring cos i get home late (A) lovin it`. but alas i was chatting on msn till 1am =O
today. i woke up. shoved a cap on and went to macro. bought a visual arts diary (cos i like plain white paper...) listened through macro and made notes. then left uni without thinking twice. got home. dled movies for bro . played piano and slept....till now daahahahha... its 8:05 now. i wish it were holidays agen for alas...i hav a minimum of 2 quizes per week leading up to exams..i shud start studying now..go away to anyone who thinks hsc is important cos we all noe its incomparable to uni exams =S
i forking love piano. cept my piano is out of tune it sounds gay..tis effective in relieving stress or expressing le happiness. oh snaps i need a pedal for my keyboard *
as for holidays. i enjoyed my one week. i am even more lagged in sleeping now..but i dont think there was a day i stayed at home doing nothing ^_^ take me back to it T________T
anyways this was the most blabbering post ever so im gonna go wait to watch HOUSE ♥
as written on; 24 September 2008
12:56 PM |
gastrooesophagulreflux.
im dying. metaphorically and literally or so it feels...
in desperate need of a proper nights sleep and a new brain please
its 1pm right now and ive only written 300 words of a 1500 word essay and personally i hate what ive written ~ so much easier to discuss these issues out loud rather than writing them down. sighhhh
not to mention i have a chem quiz tomorrow that i havent studied for and im suppose to finish accounting report tonight and distribute it to everyone so we can practise the presentation tomorrow for friday .. how cool is that 8-
so i wish to stay longer but if i want to watch new seasons of house tonight i must finish this before my bro gets home =P
oh and kudos to haydn who actually makes economics sound fun and interesting..more like the complication of a movie. AND HELLO TO THE 15TH OF NOVEMBER BABY. 3 and a half month holidai..freedom calls me =)
in desperate need of a proper nights sleep and a new brain please
its 1pm right now and ive only written 300 words of a 1500 word essay and personally i hate what ive written ~ so much easier to discuss these issues out loud rather than writing them down. sighhhh
not to mention i have a chem quiz tomorrow that i havent studied for and im suppose to finish accounting report tonight and distribute it to everyone so we can practise the presentation tomorrow for friday .. how cool is that 8-
so i wish to stay longer but if i want to watch new seasons of house tonight i must finish this before my bro gets home =P
oh and kudos to haydn who actually makes economics sound fun and interesting..more like the complication of a movie. AND HELLO TO THE 15TH OF NOVEMBER BABY. 3 and a half month holidai..freedom calls me =)
as written on; 27 July 2008
11:53 PM |
insomniacck
haydn reminded me of my blog again !!
got home at 10 past 2 this morning ... i think.
what a night/morning.
uni starts again tomorrow and I was at one time looking forward to it until i started to read the course outlines and started putting important dates on my calender...
i officially hate mondays tuesdays wednesdays thursdays and fridays...oops i just mentioned all the days =O totally unintentional...no more freedom.
its nearly midnight and i cbf to sleep..despite the fact i need to wake up and drive early cos i hav no other time to practise. yeh...cant believe im driving +_+ at least ill be ubber safe wen i drive now rite?
elizabeth the golden age sucks == stopped watchin it halfway cos it was relli relli boring.
it sucks as much as this sucky weather. though i w went out wearin shorts todai. not too cold...i wish itd stop raining...i dont like carrying around an umbrella and the windscreenwipers scare the crap out of me everytime it swipes grrr
12:12 rite now. 28th of july. 4 more days and its the last month of winter..i dont noe why but wenever i get to august it seems like the whole year has gone by . the remaining months alwais go by so quickly. gahh what a random useless post. literally thinking out loud
i need to print my timetable.
as written on; 18 July 2008
11:48 PM |
as time goes by.
wow it seriously has felt like a year since the last blogging...but it hasnt even been a month yet =] . its holidays right now !!~ well i only have a week left and by far these holidais have been the most bludgiest - not - useless holidays ive ever had. i have no acomplished anything at all! my goodness i dont even think ive done the dishes more than five times either... hehe ... all in all i have been working. and spending at the same rate too .. <_<
ive been tryin to fall asleep for two hours now. clearly ive given up and hav resorted to the macbook for entertainment. i was going to watch elizabeth the golden age but some randomness directed me to my abandoned blog.
i just read my side profile .. haha .. funny funny...weekends r horrible . ergh. ive long forgotten house. ayers rock schmares rock - i heard ull die dried and dehydrated to death going near the damn mass unless u carry gallons of water haha and wat else...i still love my cybershot...accounting and micro were the most hideous things ever...bio..man...yuck all the results r out and not happy jan - ull be glad to noe that i will never repeat my mistakes ever agen. watch me eliminate all my pass subjects nxt sem .
i really want summer to come. and i really want to drive.